By Kasey Graydon
Have you ever wondered if you were going to make it? Like seriously thought to yourself “I don’t know how much more of this I can take?” You are not even remotely considering anything as severe as suicide or leaving everything behind, you’re just freaking tired. Tired of schedules, tired of expectations, tired of bills, tired of people disappointing you, tired of disappointing people, & the list goes on. This is me. More specifically this is me right now. Life gets to us sometimes and we just need a breath of fresh air. Sometimes it’s all more than we can handle and we just need help.
Sunday morning I got some help. I wasn’t asking for it. I’m too proud for that. I was lying in bed and dreading another predictable church service. When God told me “everything will be ok” and that “I was going to make it”. He started with a song. My wife was doing her makeup and she was listening to worship music on Pandora. When I was awake enough to know what was going on, a song came on “He will hold me fast” by Kristyn Getty. EVERY SINGLE WORD baptized my heart with relief. Look it up. Anyway, That song was enough to get me out of bed and to head to church.
We visited First Baptist Church Trussville’s 9:30 a.m. service. They had a big choir of about 100. I am 33 years old & all of them were older than me. As we begin to sing “Worthy is the Lamb” I begin to notice the faces of all the choir members. Every one of them were overcome with joy, Everyone of them believed what they were singing, and every one of them were older than me. They all have been through more than double the “LIFE” that I have and they still love God and God still loved them.
God was telling me He will “hold me fast” & then he showed me the smiling faces of HUNDREDS of men and women who still believe in what they were singing despite all of the tough days they had lived through. No matter what you’re going through right now, rest easy and believe that God still believes in you even when you don’t believe in him. He still loves you even when you are filled with doubt. He still has a plan even if you feel lost.
The next time you are struggling with all of this Christian stuff find someone older than you that still believes. It’s amazing to witness Gods faithfulness to US throughout our entire lives regardless of how we feel at the moment. He will hold you fast.